10 Day Challenge

I've decided that I will try the 10 day challenge starting this coming up Tuesday. The reason I am not starting before is because I have a doctors appointment on Monday and I don't want to affect my lab results and such too much.

Here is how it works. Everyday is a total out of 80 points, you want to get the highest score possible and after 10 days you score it out of 800 points.

Here are the guidelines:

- Water
   - 2 or more liters = 20 points
   - 1 to 1.9 liters = 10 points
   - 0 to .9 liters = 0 points

- Exersise
   - 1 or more hours = 20 points
   - 30 mins to 59 mins = 10 points
   - 0 mins to 29 mins = 0 points

- Sleep
   - 8 hours = 20 points
   - 6-8 hours = 10 points
   - 0-6 hours = 0 points

- Calories
   - 0-500 calories = 20 points
   - 501-1000 = 10 points
   - 1000+ = 0 points

I am really looking forward to this challenge. I will give a day to day update on how I am doing and my scores.

I haven't been really good at staying away from food lately. Its like I am eating as if it is my last day to ever eat sort of thing. I am like a vacuum. Of course I freak out afterwards and try to purge the most possible. I got a blister on my knuckles and my mother noticed. I had to make up an excuse for it on the spot and told her that I got my hand caught on the metal thing that sticks out of the door frame....I have no idea what it is called...lol. But yeah she believed me so that was a relief.

I never use to binge and purge, I use to restrict my food intake and such and that is what I want to go back to. I hate being home for the time being since that is becoming much more of a challenge as to when I was on my own going to school. But I know I can figure out a way to make it happen. My record for the length of days that I have gone without eating is 15 days...but at the end of that I eventually had to eat since I ended up the emergency room (been there 4 times). But that won't stop me! Because thinness is what I want and I cannot stand being in my body right now...I like it when I can see my bones everywhere and I want to get back to that. Right now I am covered in layers and layers and layers of this disgusting fat. I am just so ashamed of myself! I hate it!!!!!!!!

Thinner me here I come!!!!!!!!

 This is what I looked at when I was at my lightest of 95 lbs and I want to become thinner than that. Even there there is so much fat!!!!!!! I just feel like a disgusting piece of lard :(