I really wish that I could fast forward time, because right now I feel like I am living in hell. I just don't feel happy, and simply hate who I am. I hate feeling like this, and just wish I could be free! My eating disorder is what makes me less sad and out of control, therefore I am welcoming it with my arms wide open.
Tomorrow I will be starting work which I am looking forward to. It will be from 3pm to 7pm, so no supper for me! YES!
Sorry this post is going to be really short, but I am just really down right now and not in the mood. I just want to run away! Sometimes I just wish I wouldn't exist, maybe everything would be easier that way...
Hang in there, we all have bad days. I know what you mean about your eating disorder making you feel better. I find comfort in planning out my diet and exercise routine; sometimes it feels like that's the only aspect of my life that I'm in control of. I hope you feel better soon. You've got all my support <3
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